February 22, 2010

Counting Crows

I can't sleep.  Its 1:22 am and I gave up, turned on the laptop.  Been lying there thinking about things, listening to Counting Crows on my iPod.  I don't consider them "classic rock" but wanted to share my thoughts about them.

Its one of those nights for me, when all areas of my life are swirled together and sort of mixed up into one deep, nameless emotion.  Thinking about my son, mental illness, my old boyfriend, my very young boyfriend, lost love, "them" by j.c. oates,  horrible acts of injustice, guitar music, lustful sex, running on the beach....

So I'm lost in my little world and some of the lyrics to Counting Crows songs blend in with my thoughts..."who is this guy?  how can he write like this?  he doesn't seem like his feet touch the floor when he sings.  he seems like a tortured soul that understands me...."

I really don't know that much about Counting Crows, so I had to look them up.  It wasn't a surprise to read that Adam Duritz:

"has been described as morose and tortured and...He's also suffered from depression and a dissociative disorder, which makes the world seem like it's not real," which contribute to the duration between albums and the inspiration of many of his song lyrics."
No wonder I can't sleep, I've found a new friend and he's talking to me inside my head and he makes sense to me, which scares me.  He sounds lonely.  Like love, for him, is elusive but its all he wants.  I think he feels so much when he sings...

Then he keeps singing the same song but using  different words.  So then I find out they are known for constantly changing up their music and lyrics, especially Adam.  He'll make up new lyrics or use someone else's.  So when I heard "Round Here" three times and they were all different...it wasn't all in my head. 

To me he sounds like a cross between Shannon Hoon and Eddie Vedder.

S'pose I should go back to bed now.  I'll wake up tomorrow, not remembering I got up and wrote this and think "did Dan write that?  He's gone a little nuts...."





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6 comments:

Mike aka MonolithTMA said...

Round Here is one of those songs that just pops in my head regardless of how long it's been since I last heard it. August and Everything After is one of my favorite albums.

JohnnyG's Blues said...

Not being a genre purist, in spite of my blog, Counting Crows is one of the top groups I put on my playlist.

I hate for anyone to be tortured and wounded deep in their being, but it often makes for music that also strikes deep down where we too often live.

Rain King is probably my favorite.

Dan said...

Wasn't me Barbara:-) I hope the music is at least a salve that can help with the hurts/confusion. i think it helps to know you arent the only person dealing with "things".

Bond said...

And I will be in the minority here and say I have never been a fan of the Crowes or Duritz...

Charlie said...

Same here Bond! The main culprit is Adam Durwitz's voice! I think he's a terrible singer and I can't get beyond that no matter what he has to say.

Jessica said...

*Hugs* :)
As you know, love that man and his work! His music just speaks to me, probably more than anything I've heard...and I love music. At a more recent concert, he was talking about finding love, so I'm hoping...he's in a good place now.

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