Its one of those nights for me, when all areas of my life are swirled together and sort of mixed up into one deep, nameless emotion. Thinking about my son, mental illness, my old boyfriend, my very young boyfriend, lost love, "them" by j.c. oates, horrible acts of injustice, guitar music, lustful sex, running on the beach....
So I'm lost in my little world and some of the lyrics to Counting Crows songs blend in with my thoughts..."who is this guy? how can he write like this? he doesn't seem like his feet touch the floor when he sings. he seems like a tortured soul that understands me...."
I really don't know that much about Counting Crows, so I had to look them up. It wasn't a surprise to read that Adam Duritz:
"has been described as morose and tortured and...He's also suffered from depression and a dissociative disorder, which makes the world seem like it's not real," which contribute to the duration between albums and the inspiration of many of his song lyrics."No wonder I can't sleep, I've found a new friend and he's talking to me inside my head and he makes sense to me, which scares me. He sounds lonely. Like love, for him, is elusive but its all he wants. I think he feels so much when he sings...
Then he keeps singing the same song but using different words. So then I find out they are known for constantly changing up their music and lyrics, especially Adam. He'll make up new lyrics or use someone else's. So when I heard "Round Here" three times and they were all different...it wasn't all in my head.
To me he sounds like a cross between Shannon Hoon and Eddie Vedder.
S'pose I should go back to bed now. I'll wake up tomorrow, not remembering I got up and wrote this and think "did Dan write that? He's gone a little nuts...."